An evening update

Tonight friggin' sucks. I am so hungry...I could eat just about anything in this apartment right now. I did the mental calculations and my best estimate is that I had maybe 1,000 calories today. That's down from the 2,500 the dieticians had me on prior to this two-week pre-op diet.

A protein shake for breakfast. One for lunch. Two small, protein-based snacks. And a dinner of 4-6 ounces of lean meat and non-starchy vegetables. That's what I have to work with until the day before my surgery. (Then, it's an all-liquid diet.)

I know this is a hard journey to take. My focus has been on August 10--the date of my surgery. But to have this kind of drastic dietary change before my stomach is reduced to about 20% of it's current size is extremely distracting. I am starting to question whether or not I can actually do this. I keep reminding myself that the road to the surgery started last July and I have known for quite some time the radical changes that will take me from--let's face it--a fat, lazy slob into a lean, mean cycling machine. But now that it is coming down to the brass tacks...it's harder than I thought it would be.

Doesn't mean a thing, though. I'm gonna have to deal with this and go through the process. It's only two weeks, right? Once my stomach is physically reduced, I'm confident I won't have the hunger sensations that have been present most of today. Heck, I bet by this time next week I will be more accustomed to this part of the regiment.

So here we go. Two weeks pre-op and I tipped the scales this afternoon at 432.0 pounds. Not as low as I would have liked, but the doctor was happy and so I will be happy. I am curious to see, though, how much weight I lose between now and surgery day.